After having kids my body changed; my mental health changed. I found myself exhausted in a way I didn’t know and fulfilled in a way I didn’t know. In an attempt to go back to what I was and what I thought my body should be I tried every way to eat – elimination diets, measuring food, ordering expensive shakes. I paid a lot of money per month for a protein shake that was going to help me lose weight and use all these containers and stuff. And, ya, I totally lost weight and I definitely felt better.
The problem came when it wasn’t sustainable. I don’t have time to measure out how much fruit I’m eating if I’m packing two lunches, getting kids to daycare and going to work. It wasn’t possible.
ONE-TWO PUNCH helped me learn to trust myself again. It helped me trust when I’m actually hungry or recognize that I’m sad or that I’m overwhelmed as a mom or I’m happy, but that doesn’t mean I need to eat all the cake at my kids’ birthday party to deal with it. In reality I need to know whether or not I am hungry; whether or not I am doing okay. If I am hungry, now I know what to eat. I can choose.
My refrigerator and pantry are stocked with healthy foods that make me feel good. But they are also stocked with Peanut M&M’s and I don’t feel bad about it anymore. I’ve adjusted my eating times to know what sustains me instead of eating according to what I thought was the perfect time. I learned there was no perfect time to eat – I needed to eat when I was hungry. ONE-TWO PUNCH also helped me deal with guilt. I need to eat according to what’s good for me instead of how Suzie Q is eating. We all have different bodies and different needs and OTP helped me come to terms with that.